I am alive and breathing and yawning. I have been AWOL for the last month – In fact not even opened WordPress for exactly two weeks.
It was not exactly planned, but I think the Inside me was busy being an oyster. The Outside me on the other hand was a social butterfly. I went home for almost a week and didn’t even carry my laptop. I traveled and visitedΒ a few friends after more than a year and had a most amazing time with them. All the while, I was technologically cut off except for the bare essentials. I did some running, I did a lot of baking (cookies and cakes and cheesecakes), I went bird-watching, I did tons of shopping for upcoming events.
All this while, my inside was a blank slate. It was not taking anything in. It was not throwing anything out. There were points where I experienced the concept of “Nothing”. I truly cleared my mind and I think it happened because I did not even try to do it. It was finally exhausted of the myriad maze of thoughts and anticipations and planning. Every day of the next few months is jam packed with a TO-DO list. I have deadlines piling over at work and it has been swamping about 50 hours a week.Β I also somehow managed to twist my ankle again randomly so I am reduced to hobbling.
Weirdly, I got a lot of inspiration to think and my drafts are full of scribbles. But I just have the sugar and the flour. I am still missing the rising and binding agents to put it together. And I am not able to look for it to find it. My mind just shuts off every time I take a pen to a paper. It rebels and I don’t know why. The overflow of thoughts that followed the drought refuse to burst out – instead they are just eating each other up. I have taken to inhaling books and
I am finally happy I sorted out enough to write this post! I have been unfair to many people whose work I adore but now have not even been able to pop up silently. Slowly I am getting back into the groove before I go on another break in three weeks – a break I have been planning for almost a year now but finally made it happen in the last few months.
Don’t give up yet. I have oatmeal mocha cookies as a bribe π
May be u were restless. May be some thoughts bothering you deep within.. May be past memories are haunting.. I don’t know . but now that u r back .. I hope I get some great posts to read .. As always u do..
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Thanks a lot for your support and encouragement π More cookies for you! I have been writing and feels great…
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Haha received cookies.. I’ll wait for u next post soon
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Good to see you back Praj…anyone who bakes cookies has to have been using their time very wisely..
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Thanks a lot Michael π The smell of cookies in my kitchen was inspiring!
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sMiLes.. my FriEnd.. Prajakta..
nice to see you back here blogging
again.. and yes.. the mind can only take
so much of so many different things that
it gives us feedback on what it can and
can reliably do next.. Oh.. Lord.. 50 hours
a week in deadlines is quite the change
from a Vacation when
the mind finally
just calms
down in these
symbols for our
experiences we call
words.. and mindful awareness
rises to the top and the tea bag
of subconscious mind steeps
and mixes with renewed
conscious miNd and
Body Balance
refreshed and
awakened but yes..
wiTh 50 hours a week
of work and all those deadlines
the priority of reality becomes
mechanical cognition that as
science shows inhibits
the social empathic
mind that
includes
creativity
and interpretation
of the deeper stuff iN liFE..
so yes.. your social butterfly
life gave your creativity WinGS
and perHaps all those deadlines
and hours of work to come noW
iS sinKinG that subconscious
pArt of Flow iN ZonE..
lower than
out
put now
that was beFoRe
when perHaps the
Prajakta BRain wAves
moved from Beta.. to
Alpha and even
closer
to
Theta
trance of
Creativity’s
wAkinG iN
Fruition oF
Dreams NoW
In ExpreSsinG
thaT greaT SpiRit
iN words and otHeR arts
of HeARt In New ways Of
Creation Activity BeinG..:)
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You have totally nailed how our thoughts and brain waves transition through different stages! π Thank you for being a steady support!
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SMiLes
My friEnd..
Prajakta..
My FuLL
‘TiMe’
Job now
IS A
FriEnd
Who requires
No thing iN
Return.. All
My pleaSure
ISREAL and FReED..
So.. Thank yoU..
And as alWays
WeLcome..:)
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Welcome back Prajakta π
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Thanks Irene! π
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For creativity, one needs a break to be more creative.
Next time when you go to Mom, go without laptop & mobile.
Keep writing
Vikas
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Thank you Mama! I don’t need the connectivity when I am with Mommy π
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Oh those cookies sound delicious! I would love to try some! Glad you are around and eating cookies π
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Thank you so much!! Impulsive recipes work the best for me π Tried a chocolate oreo cheesecake a couple of days back!
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Yum!!!
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Wow that was a eventful blog hiatus!! I am craving cake now, i blame you, π . Even i am going through that phase. No creative words stumble out of my brain.
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Ha ha! I will parcel some of the cheesecake I made now π Thank you for understanding and hope you find your muse soon!
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We all need a break once in a while. I look for excuses to take them. …vacations are good for that. π Nice to know you’re alive and kicking, Prajakta. π
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Turns out I kick well Linda π Thanks for your understanding and support.
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I go with the others: Wonderful to have you posting… whatever you are posting. I understand that at times you have the topics but it doesn’t feel “full” enough. You are doing good in just letting things happen. The more relaxed you are the better inspiration can flow!
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Thank you Erika for your consistent encouragement and positivity; I think my recent comments on your work have also communicate the second guessing I have been through. Relaxing is something that certainly helped! π
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I am not at home at the moment and reply from my phone. I have to check on that comment you mentioned later but I am glad the post perhaps helped a little to relax. I hug you strongly and just know that if you feel like it you can allways email me, Prajaktaπ
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I know I can always count on you β€ Thank you for the support!
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Always there for sure π
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Sometimes we need to go with the flow and live life. You’ve been doing a good job with that! Thanks for checking in with an update. I enjoyed the metaphors like your thoughts eating each other.
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Thanks a lot JoAnne for your positive and encouraging words π I am taking it easy now.
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I think sometimes a shutting up does help to bring out the best. Even a creative mind needs rest… π
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Oh yes! Definitely Mani π Thanks a lot for checking in and have a good weekend!
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You too, have a wonderful Sunday… π
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It is, perhaps, for the better. The cookies I mean π And the writing hiatus. In my humble view, you cannot force yourself to be creative.
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Reading your blog is certainly a treat to me as an hotelier,traveler & foodie.Every post is different from other & beautifully crafted with lovely thoughts and feelings.πππ
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Thanks a lot for such kind comments Prashantt…. Means a lot. Will be dropping by soon π
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You are amazing and words worth it.Have a great day ahead!!π
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