It is slow. It is painful. It is unavoidable. It is welcome.
I am bending to the will of the increasing warmth of the sun. The clouds have broken through in a glorious display of song and dance, the memories of the frost all but forgotten. It feels like waking up from a long, tormented sleep where even nightmares would have been welcome instead of the blank lifeless vacuum that held no concept of meaning.
The blood is running through my fingers again as I furiously set the pen to paper. Doodles make way to letters and then somehow, magically, unfathomably, the letters are turning to words. I am afraid to stop writing lest the sunshine gets lost and I get frozen – suspended back into the land of the long winter.
Oh! I have missed being here. I have missed giving reign to my thoughts. I have missed the joy of not knowing which words my fingers might bleed. I have missed being envious of the brilliance of fellow bloggers and writers. I have missed being inspired.
It has been a long journey to open my blog again. For months I was contemplating, but I couldn’t turn it into a task. This place was always about choice, about joy and about freedom. I was loathe to make it into something akin to duty. My mind was numb. It was all about laundry lists and action items in the long journey of settling down which somehow never seemed to happen. It has been almost a year since I moved to Toronto and yet, my mind took its sweet time into making the city its own.
I don’t know when this city became home but I will tell you when I realized it – last Sunday. D and I took our first long vacation since moving here and got back on Sunday. That is when I equated the end of the vacation with coming back home. My condo and my city was what I wrapped around myself with a sense of comfort and security. This in turn, encouraged me to welcome myself back into my second home – this place π
Let the good times begin! Happy Summer everyone π How have you been?
Hey, Prajakta! It’s been so long–I didn’t even know you were in Toronto. I’m just a few hours east of you. We should get together sometime. π Welcome back to WordPress, my dear!
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I didn’t realize you were here π I would definitely love to catch-up! Thank you π
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Good to see you in here again Prajakta π
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Thank you Irene π How are you doing??
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I’m better, thank you.
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Nice to see you here Prajakta. Welcome back. It always feels nice when old bloggers make comeback. It’s monsoon here so yeah happy monsoon. π
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Thanks Pratik… The monsoon has a been a little crazy from what I hear. How are you doing?
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Yesss.. half of India under water you can say. I am good. Relocated to Bangalore to take my career forward. Hope you are doing well. How’s life over there? You are in Canada now .. right?
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Itβs great to see you blog again, Prajakta. Youβve been missed.
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Thanks Robb! I have missed being here π Catching up. Hope you are doing well!
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Oh, Prajakta i am so glad you feel home again! And a big welcome to you π
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Thank you Moushmi! π Hope you are doing well.
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Welcome dear Praj. Keep writing. I love, enjoy and admire your posts.
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You are the bestest Daddy!!
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Welcome back! Blogosphere is a non-judgmental, welcoming universe. You were away because you had to be. You are back because you had to be.
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Thank you Ankur – you put it better than I could even though I wrote an entire blog post on it! Hope you are doing well
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“Coming HoMe And Not KNoWinG”
Indeed Deep This is my Friend Prajakta
For it’s True A Key To Staying Enthused
ALiVE iN What We Call Life is to Have A Home
of Love To come Home to And A Challenge to
Work
Together
For a New
Day Yet to Come..
Life is Not ‘A Record’…
Life is A Dance and Song
Yet Sung And Danced Anew
With Newer Steps and Words
Yet Heard or Even Recognized my FriEnd..
Throw Out all the Laundry Lists And Deadlines
DiVE iN the Deep End Arise and Breathe Again ‘The Air’..:)
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You words never fail to bring a smile. Thank you for your constant support! π
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SMiLes Prajakta
Still enjoying
Your Journey
Here..:)
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Reblogged this on Vijayagiri views.
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Nice blog that I’ve happened to come across. β€οΈπΈ
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Thank you! I will be making a trip to your corner soon π
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Thank you πΈβ€οΈ
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Welcome back!
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Thank you Suri! π
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Here from Ray’s (and his owner’s) blog.
What a wonderful sentiment – to feel like you’re coming home can be so comforting.
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You are most welcome here π thank you so much!
p.s. I love how you called it Ray’s blog first π
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It’s great to read you π
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Thank you Joey! π
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It takes a while to get used to a new place, especially when it’s so different from where you were. It seems like I recall you were on the other side of the planet before. That’s a big move! I’m so glad you’re feeling more at home now and that you’re back here on WordPress with a poetic and honest post from your beautiful heart.
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