Restful (or Less?)

24 hours in a day – How royally do I waste it?

Sometimes, I manage to draw some semblance of good out of my day. I ate healthy, I had a stimulating conversation, I delivered a good piece of work, I worked out, I wrote something, I ran errands, I cooked a great lunch. Whatever. Something to make me feel good that I didn’t let the day go waste.

Nothing to write home about.

Many nights, even though the sleep comes easy, I find myself wondering what on earth did I accomplish in the 16 waking hours of my life that day beyond browsing Etsy and Buzzfeed! (No offence to either). What’s the word I yearn to use?

Constructive. Or Productive.

Funnily (or not), I hesitate to use those words out loud. Story time: I was 15 and on a school trip – an overnight to a village in Rajasthan. We were sitting at this spot all afternoon. Gossiping and playing cards. I became restless with the inactivity when there was a world to explore outside the guesthouse (or so I imagined). I just voiced out this one line in frustration, “Let’s just go and do something constructive, guys”. I never heard the end of whatever came through the laughter. The boring studious girl had spoken the boring studious lines as usual. Even my close friends couldn’t help a chuckle.

Till date, I am surprised by how easily that mildly mortifying feeling comes back to gnaw at me.

The point of my rambling is that I always get restless if I have not done SOMETHING! I can’t just let things go. Even on a holiday, I cannot relax and keep feeling wasteful. I wonder about the dozen things I could have done differently, to show something for my time and leave behind a piece of worthiness. To whom, is a very good question!

I don’t know. I don’t have any answers. Just a long list of could haves, should haves and would haves.


Put me out of my misery, will you?

19 thoughts on “Restful (or Less?)

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  2. Oh sweet friend, you do a lot through this blog, helping readers with very worthy topics. And you could be making a positive impact on someone – which is ABSOLUTELY constructive – without even realizing it. If you feel more need to be active in your community, perhaps volunteering is an option? Many places have as low as a couple hours a month that they require volunteers do. I’m sending good vibes to help squash that restless feeling xx

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    • This is one of the best things I have read – It spins a different perspective. Blogging is so personal, one doesn’t always realize how many people we end up touching, however fleeting.

      Also, apologies for the late response. I somehow missed a bunch of comments so catching up.

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  3. You are not alone. There’s always more to do. I’ve realized it’s all about priorities. Sometimes I have a hard time making rest a priority, even when it needs to be.

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  4. You are not alone. The only advice I can offer is: Practice accepting that sometimes it’s OK to just do nothing. In fact, sometimes it’s essential so that we can re-charge, re-energize and start again.

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  5. Story of my life. Only for me it did not start when I was a kid. While on vacation, as a kid, all I wanted to do was sleep. Even though sleep is what I love, when it comes to vacation, I like to keep moving, seeing the sights and doing things.

    As far as life in general is concerned, last Friday is a perfect example – I had a day off so I could rest. I knew I needed it. But I felt like I had to take care of things. I struggled most of the day, trying to pull myself in different directions. You need time to rest and just be without being productive, because otherwise, you will burn out.

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