24 hours in a day – How royally do I waste it?
Sometimes, I manage to draw some semblance of good out of my day. I ate healthy, I had a stimulating conversation, I delivered a good piece of work, I worked out, I wrote something, I ran errands, I cooked a great lunch. Whatever. Something to make me feel good that I didn’t let the day go waste.
Nothing to write home about.
Many nights, even though the sleep comes easy, I find myself wondering what on earth did I accomplish in the 16 waking hours of my life that day beyond browsing Etsy and Buzzfeed! (No offence to either). What’s the word I yearn to use?
Constructive. Or Productive.
Funnily (or not), I hesitate to use those words out loud. Story time: I was 15 and on a school trip – an overnight to a village in Rajasthan. We were sitting at this spot all afternoon. Gossiping and playing cards. I became restless with the inactivity when there was a world to explore outside the guesthouse (or so I imagined). I just voiced out this one line in frustration, “Let’s just go and do something constructive, guys”. I never heard the end of whatever came through the laughter. The boring studious girl had spoken the boring studious lines as usual. Even my close friends couldn’t help a chuckle.
Till date, I am surprised by how easily that mildly mortifying feeling comes back to gnaw at me.
The point of my rambling is that I always get restless if I have not done SOMETHING! I can’t just let things go. Even on a holiday, I cannot relax and keep feeling wasteful. I wonder about the dozen things I could have done differently, to show something for my time and leave behind a piece of worthiness. To whom, is a very good question!
I don’t know. I don’t have any answers. Just a long list of could haves, should haves and would haves.
Put me out of my misery, will you?
I think, this has to do with your perfectionism, Prajakta 🙂
It is okay to allow ourselves to relax sometimes, but maybe we were raised to never waste our time.
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You are too kind, Irene 🙂 Thank you – apologies for the late response. Missed this.
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You are welcome.
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Seems to me that you are not spending time with you. See link below:
https://meandray.com/2017/10/30/who-are-you-part-6/
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I missed this. Thank you! I remember this series, and I was going through those exercises that you had set. Thank you for the kind reminder – maybe I will try it this weekend.
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SMiLes Prajakta Some Folks Are More Like Anchors of Ships
Grounding Ashore Secure With Trust and then There are other
Folks Who Are More Like Sails of Ships Restless For The Wind to Live
And Then When Wind
Comes There is
No End
To Sailing
Potential Meanwhile
The Anchor is Lifted
And Waits For its Hour
To Ground the Ship Again..
Meanwhile The Entire Ship Sails
And Stay Away From Storms That Rage
too Much in Safe Harbor With Anchor
At Bottom Grounding Ship And
Sails Once again… Another
Way to Look at it perhaps
Is A UniVerse is a
Place with
Over A
Quadrillion
Lit Points named
Stars A Human is a Reflection
Of A UniVerse with Over A Quadrillion
Connections Within that may be Lit up
Like Chemical And Electrical and Other
Biological Connections too yes Neurohormonal
And Peptides and Even Astrocytes Directing Waves
of Neurons in Synergy of Orchestra and Symphony one
Some Conductors Light Up all these Connections and Potentials
of Human Light Within and Others are rather not much like Sails
More like
Anchors
my Friend
It seems to
me You have
A Gift just Looking
For the Wind to not only
Sail but soar beyond the
Stars Within my Friend
i do not do sitting
Still
Meditation
Nor Will 7 Chakras
ever Be enough for
me in Kundalini Meditation
either or Just 7 Mantra’s to
Chant along the Way
Multiples of 7
Beyond
Over
A Quadrillion
Connections of
A Real Christmas
Tree to Multi-Color Light
up Eternally now as Every Move
And Every Word becomes a Dance
And Song New Again for it is not just
Constructivity or Productivity It Is A Soul Who
Continues to Evolve Past the Lessons of Before..
Original Creativity Birthing Present Gift Ignoring Guidelines Past AND Future…
Sailing
Soaring
Winds Now..:)
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Oh sweet friend, you do a lot through this blog, helping readers with very worthy topics. And you could be making a positive impact on someone – which is ABSOLUTELY constructive – without even realizing it. If you feel more need to be active in your community, perhaps volunteering is an option? Many places have as low as a couple hours a month that they require volunteers do. I’m sending good vibes to help squash that restless feeling xx
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This is one of the best things I have read – It spins a different perspective. Blogging is so personal, one doesn’t always realize how many people we end up touching, however fleeting.
Also, apologies for the late response. I somehow missed a bunch of comments so catching up.
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Reblogged this on Vijayagiri views.
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You are not alone. There’s always more to do. I’ve realized it’s all about priorities. Sometimes I have a hard time making rest a priority, even when it needs to be.
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Thanks JoAnna! It is funny, even when we prioritize, there are still “low priority” items that still end up being treated as high. I just need to take them off the list to actually make it work.
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I know what you mean. I’ve got to make an appointment with myself to do some art.
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Hmmm. I empathise. I think I have similar feelings. And, like almost everything else in life, it has its pluses and minuses. I guess we should, as Nike boldly proclaims, JUST DO IT.
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Thank you! It is good to hear a different perspective on this feeling.
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You are not alone. The only advice I can offer is: Practice accepting that sometimes it’s OK to just do nothing. In fact, sometimes it’s essential so that we can re-charge, re-energize and start again.
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Thank you! That’s a sound advice: practice. It will be conscious at first, but hopefully I will grow into it.
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Story of my life. Only for me it did not start when I was a kid. While on vacation, as a kid, all I wanted to do was sleep. Even though sleep is what I love, when it comes to vacation, I like to keep moving, seeing the sights and doing things.
As far as life in general is concerned, last Friday is a perfect example – I had a day off so I could rest. I knew I needed it. But I felt like I had to take care of things. I struggled most of the day, trying to pull myself in different directions. You need time to rest and just be without being productive, because otherwise, you will burn out.
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Burn out is what I am afraid of… Hopefully I will be striking a balance soon. Thank you for dropping by!
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