Just Jo Jan – Surreal

I wasn’t planning on dwelling on the turn of calendars this year until the prompt at Just Jot It January – “2016” forced me to play with the time turner. Considering it played with me and tricked me into believing that only six weeks are in even as the entire year of 2015 whirled by. Well played, time!

I cannot believe I have pulled off 8760 hours the way they happened in 2015. It feels like I was dreaming the entire time and I am happy to say it didn’t feel like a nightmare. That is why I am probably skeptical to look at 2016 and what lies ahead – because well, you can only fall after reaching the top right?

Last year felt like a walk in the forest with its set of pretty meadows, twinkling streams, hidden ditches and ultimately, a place called home. 2015 gave me the opportunity to heal and believe in every aspect of my life. I guess the hard times of 2014 were ultimately the very seeds which sprouted beautifully in 2015 and if all goes well, the tree will keep growing and branching out. Maybe one day, I can cut open a part and see the rings that have formed inside the trunk. Each ring has a lesson, a celebration that I hope I will carry with me till the end.

Looking back, more hits than misses. My health improved, professionally I developed a lot,  I snagged a poor unsuspecting soul into being my life partner, I planned and successfully went on my first trip abroad and also convinced my parents into believing that I am a responsible and dependable daughter.

*awkwardly trying to pat my back*

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So, do I have any plans for 2016? Not really concrete. I am terrified to make one in lieu of the nervousness mentioned earlier. I can say I want to continue with my walk in this forest… climb an interesting hill on the horizon with different soils and formations. Maybe taking it one day at a time will not be the best idea, so I need to form some semblance for direction. The fact that coloring in Secret Garden by Johanna Basford is on top of the list shouldn’t be too much of a concern. Other items include bake a Bailey’s cheesecake/tiramisu, go on a trekking expedition, not get fired and read at least 25 books. And that covers my top 5 of 2016 – fun, eh?

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Any circles and stars on the calendar of 2016 or are we making them as we go?

My first post of 2016 and I want to thank you for having me on your reader and sharing your experiences with me. Good luck and Happy New Year!! 🙂

Is it REALLY 2015?

Intangible Power

We cannot really measure time. We cannot feel it. Yet, we celebrate the passage of time in full splendour. At the moment, one out of five article is telling me how I should revamp my new year – be it for food, travel, books, movies, career, life etc. Rummaging deep within my heart, I too wrote about making peace and climb my way out of the hell hole last year shoved me into.

Because, let’s face it. 2014 was really bad for too many people. I could almost hear those sighs of relief in the wind and see the optimistic wings sewn for the new year.

But so far in 2015, I had to pay the same bills and put on the same clothes to make my way across the same path to catch the same bus to go the same place of work. The sun and the stars, the crappy traffic, the smelly guy in the bus and the taste of my lasagna stand the same. How’s 2015 any different?

In a mindless rant, I came up with a ridiculous theory as to why I cannot expect anything new or better just because the year changed – as labelling time is just a human invention. So, what if the thought that humanity needs a time keeping device had struck those wise people a few months earlier or later than it actually did. Maybe then, this bracket of days we call January would have been the coming July. To explain it better –

Let’s assume the human decided to start the calendar on January xx1. What if this decision had come a few months earlier? So the original June xx0 would have then been new January xx1 – all because this thought bloomed a little early. And that means present day January is already June 2015 – so we would be six months into the New Year and it would still be as crappy.

Sorry if it does not make sense. My heartfelt gratitude (and apologies) if someone did manage to follow my thought process, however ludicrous.

But during a quiet moment as my frustration subsided, I realized something. It was not about the turn of calendar. It was about the change in our perspective driven by the turn which is making THE big difference to bring in the calls of optimism and hope. Yes, it is all happening only our heads and is intangible beyond words. But I had to raise my glass to its tremendous power. Because at this moment, I am holding on to that very baseless optimism that is keeping me afloat.

This weird rant has been brought to you by Just Jot It January! This is my thirteenth jot but the first one I am posting.

*waves hello*

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