It felt good to get winded after so long -gasping and panting for breath with my mind gratefully numbed out.
It has been almost a week that my hand became better – my functioning is almost normal and I am okay as long as I avoid handshakes. They are my temporary personal hells. The first thing I did to feel normal was to go for a run.
I overdid it. I should have stopped at 3km but well, I was enjoying the burn so much that I kept at it. It felt good to be in control of my body and not give in to the fatigue that seeps in. I welcomed the weightlessness of my head after weeks of heavy eyes and dizzying pain. I truly felt like myself – no amount of squats, lunges or burpees do the magic as the good ol’ fashioned run.
I miss feeling alive. I miss the racing heartbeats. I miss the breathlessness as thoughts run over themselves to get out.
It has not been a picnic for the people around me – a bundle of nerves and negativity I was. The pounds have piled on around my waist, my work has become bland and Game of Thrones is taking on a storyline that is not to my liking! Journeying my way through books, music and assimilating the perfect brownie recipes, I kept from losing it completely. D – bless his soul – was patient most of the times!
In this time, I re-discovered a new fascination for science. Astronomy was always an interest through science fiction, but then facts are stranger than fiction! While I may not be knocking on ISRO’s doors anytime soon (They will shut down the moment they start admitting people like me), I think I want this channel to stay open. A belated resolution to learn something new came to me. Illness isn’t without benefits, I suppose.
Can I just SHOUT OUT a MASSIVE THANK YOU to all of you? The amount of love and support I have received, is incredible.
We are approaching the last week of August…. Can you believe how time has flown???
Glad to know that you are recovering. Get well soon
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Thanks a lot, Bhavana 🙂
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Waah! That’s some transformation; happy to note the energy has changed to positive! Cheers to D!! Don’t rule out being a Consultant to ISRO & getting a back-door entry to the world of astronomical science. #KeepBelieving
P.S. You may want to adapt to fist-pumps till the time you are okay shaking hands. And it’s fun too; even at work! 🙂
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That made me smile for so long 🙂 Never give up hope – that has always been your motto… Thank you
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I am sure you must have inhaled fresh oxygen during your kerala tour.breathlessness must have vanished.
Put your hand in hot & ice cold water alternatively for 15 min .Hope it will give you lot of relief.
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I will try that 🙂 Thank you, Mama!
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The need of catching up with feeling alive must be immense. Absorb it to the fullest, Prajakta!!
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Doing it before my weekdays bury me again 😦 Thanks Erika!
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Yes, make use of the given time fully!!
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Get well soon. Love the beautiful pic you shared. Keep spreading love and joy like that flower 🙂
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Thank you so much, Himali ❤
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Great to hear of your recovery and that you are getting outdoors too.. Your post lights up my morning here xx
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I am happy to hear that! Thank you Christy 🙂
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Your excellent description of how running made you feel inspires me. I have not run in a long time, but I’m going to start walking more and who knows where that might lead! May you continue to heal well and enjoy those stars!
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Of course. It is one step after another… And who knows! Cheers to those steps.
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Thanks!
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SMiLes.. mY FriEnd Prajakta.. wonderful
to hear how you turned the dARKness of your
Hand Injury into opening another Door to fulfill
A Different Area Intelligence of your Human Potential
in Astronomical
ways.. hehe
of course
the
topic
of the Evening
as i just related to
HiMaLi in her work place
now a few countries away
from India in the United
Arab Emirates.. anyway..
in a Global Community
we can share the goings on and
pleasant ones THANK GOODNESS
of a Solar Eclipse that stands to harm no
one as long as they do not look at it with a
Naked eye and speaking of Blinding events the
effective loss of my eyesight and hearing surely too
opened a Door to writing all these Words as then when
the pain in one’s eye is like Dentist Drill where no drug
will kill the pain in ear either one must find a new hobby to
attempt to escape that suicide disease of pain And Writing
from wake to sleep for the last 33 months or so of that pain..
provided a meditative
and transcendent state
that allowed me to at least
tolerate the pain enough where
i didn’t wanna use the Chain in
my Bicycle Basket to not screw up
hanging myself finding a tree far
enough away where only
the vultures would find
me.. hehe.. and
people wonder
now why
i Dance everywhere
i go now and keep on
writing.. past 12 Million
Words since that attempt
at Escape on Thanks Giving
Day of 2010 and the end of that
pain a little over four years ago in
July 2013.. i Loved Living and had all
the money i needed and a Loving Wife too..
but there are some pains that are worse than
death as ‘they’ call type two Trigeminal Neuralgia
the Suicide Disease for Good Reason as technically
in Medical Literature it is assessed as the actual worst
pain known to humankind.. the one thing also assessed
as worse than crucifixion in actual books on that actual
topic.. no three hour or three day tour for me.. 66 long
months in hell.. and sure.. total eclipse of my heart
yep.. there is a Song for that too.. about a
Lunar Eclipse or Solar Eclipse
as i make a DancESonG
For the Solar
Eclipse tomorrow
for Love Away from
all the eclipses of Human
HeARTs we see around the Globe now.. SpARKs oF LiGht And
Peace Be WitH You and Love as ‘they ‘Dance and SinG mY FriEnd..:)
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Ha ha! Thank you so much, my friend. I hope you have a good and safe time in experiencing this eclipse. Who knows what sort of a muse its going to be.
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Artists Trading
Money For
Muse..;)
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Get well soon.. between I liked your positive thought,illness comes with some benefits ..astronomy is something which attracts me too always..so let me know your new mode of learning or what you are going to do further
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Thanks a lot Akhila. I have been following NASA for a while now and also reading some books based on it. Have to go back to my school books to start with the basics to be frank 😀
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Oh..okay…following NASA, a good thought.. let me too check that..thank you so much Praja
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All in good time and good to know you are getting there.
I totally understand the feeling of running lately just about 3 to 4 weeks back I have also started to do my morning runs agaib. And I know it’s a pain to get back to what use to be.
As you said the exhaustion and pain.. but then the pain becomes addictive tooo.. take care of yourself . .and all will be fine.
And game of thrones I am very excited I think it’s going fine.. not sure if I shud say this as I don’t know what episode you are on.. but episode 6 is wonderful…
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That burn really does feel good, right! Thank you for sharing…
I am one of those book purists – and I do not like the plot movements. It makes for some amazing television drama, but gives a kick for people like me who want complete answers 😛
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Nice post
And the Munnar flower is enticing
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Thanks a lot, Kurian 🙂 And welcome to the blog!
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Thank you very much
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I am glad to know that your hand is better now.
And yes, i simply don’t know where did 2017 go! I thought just a few days back we were all making resolutions here. Where dis it go???!
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Thanks a lot, Moushmi 🙂 I really wish I had something to show for the last 8 months… Alas.. Not much.
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No problem. it is just great that you are back 🙂
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Such a positive, warm post! 😀 Very happy to hear you’re doing better 🙂
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Thank you so much Deboshree!
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Seems like you’ve been through a lot lately…hope everything is good now 🙂 keep writing
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Thanks a lot, Divya 🙂 Things should get better soon!
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